Amira

  I don't like her. Its not like I hate her but I just yeah tak suka. Whenever she with me, I feel like "Urghh! Not her again!"  Sorry if I'm being hypocrite but yeah till now, I'm still trying to adapt it. It is hers and I can't change her into whatever I want. It is not a friend is all about.  I don't like the way she acted. I don't like the way she talked. It kinda something close to riak. Well maybe she is not riak but I feel it that way. I just can't help myself. I'll try. I'll try to accept whoever she is. Yeah I'll try. 

   SERABUT! SERABUT! SERABUT!  Aku pon taktau pasaipa aku rasa serabut malam ni. Hmm. All things mixed up. ALL! He! She! Them! It! 

 
PLEASE DON'T! Don't you ever come back, boy. Please. I had move on and I never wish to turn back. No! Please.
Back there,  You ignore my feelings. You played me with your words. Your fake sincerity blind me out. 
Almost 3 years, I had been waiting for you. I fell in your promises. I'd trust you. 
But, it was before. The moment I was too obsessed with you.  The moment I was drowned with love and lust.
Now, I've changed.  Maybe it just a little change but it is still a change. I'm not the one who begged for a man's love anymore. There is no more.
When I have a better life,  Filled with beautiful moments and friends, YOU CAME! YOU GREET ME!   Well, people might say " Ala. Teguq ja pon. Biasa la" But,  for me it is unusual because you're not the type who will start conversation between us.
And, when we're having chit chat, I'll try to not really 'layan' you. I'll try to build barrier. A huge barrier between us. 
Its not like I hate you or what. I'm just ... yeah.  I don't want to make the same mistake again.

  

 
Since our drama project, 
All your words, your kindness, your concern, your sengals hahahaha. This may be too early and I'm trying hard not to keep on hoping for you to be mine someday. 
Nice to meet you. 
A nice feeling when I'm with you. 
But, 
For now, we promised ourselves to finish up our studies, have a job, earn some money. 
We were friends before yet we're still friends. 
I promise. One day, when we are ready and if we still have this feeling, if Allah had meant us together, In Shaa Allah.